03.14.2011
time check: 3:05 AM
the day i started working night shift, my world also took a 360-degree turn. it's early, way too early, monday morning, and knowing that i just spent my first work-off with my highschool friends from dinner to dawn, i shouldn't be spending my second (and last work-off awake this early. i should have been catching more sleep and getting as much rest as i can, because later today i'll mark the start of my yet again weeklong work routine.
but since i can't force myself to go back to sleep anymore, this must be okay too. for one, i finally got time to cut my long untidy unladylike toenails. i got time to clean up my cellphone inbox because every so often a blinking envelope icon keeps on popping to indicate i have saved messages more than it can accommodate. i also got time to text the people i haven't really texted for quite a while now, and to tell them how much i miss them. best of all, i got time to reflect, to ponder, to get in touch with my emotions, to think things through, to monitor where i'm at and to where i'm heading, and to see how i am doing.
it may sound a little exaggerated, but true, i didn't have the luxury of time for a good three weeks to do any of these.
and true, i haven't really been thoughtful to myself to even check up on how i really am. having a full-time night shift-scheduled work and a part-time job left me to do a routine of work-sleep-work-sleep, with less thinking and reflecting (and even lesser social interaction).
i guess what i'm just trying to say is that it's a necessity for me (and i think for everyone else too) to have my much-needed waking-moment-alone-time to keep me insanely sane.
time check: 3:05 AM
the day i started working night shift, my world also took a 360-degree turn. it's early, way too early, monday morning, and knowing that i just spent my first work-off with my highschool friends from dinner to dawn, i shouldn't be spending my second (and last work-off awake this early. i should have been catching more sleep and getting as much rest as i can, because later today i'll mark the start of my yet again weeklong work routine.
but since i can't force myself to go back to sleep anymore, this must be okay too. for one, i finally got time to cut my long untidy unladylike toenails. i got time to clean up my cellphone inbox because every so often a blinking envelope icon keeps on popping to indicate i have saved messages more than it can accommodate. i also got time to text the people i haven't really texted for quite a while now, and to tell them how much i miss them. best of all, i got time to reflect, to ponder, to get in touch with my emotions, to think things through, to monitor where i'm at and to where i'm heading, and to see how i am doing.
it may sound a little exaggerated, but true, i didn't have the luxury of time for a good three weeks to do any of these.
so just imagine how long my toenails could have grown. gross.
and true, i haven't really been thoughtful to myself to even check up on how i really am. having a full-time night shift-scheduled work and a part-time job left me to do a routine of work-sleep-work-sleep, with less thinking and reflecting (and even lesser social interaction).
i guess what i'm just trying to say is that it's a necessity for me (and i think for everyone else too) to have my much-needed waking-moment-alone-time to keep me insanely sane.
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