love for psychology. love for self.

i started loving psychology seriously when i enrolled in a psychology class back in college, one about personality. i loved it so much i even thought about shifting courses or take a master's degree in that field.

there is something satisfying in learning about human character and behavior, why people act a certain way, why we think the way we do, why we have opposing views and beliefs, why we are similar yet different.

it's even more satisfying to learn about one self, fully. not that i didn't know much about myself before i enrolled in that class, but i can say i became more aware of who and what i really am. and i liked myself more than i ever did. 

this personality test of some sort has been visible in many facebook walls lately, and i also found it in joicee's blog. i gave it a try and i kind of liked the first four words i stumbled upon.

passionate.  sentimental.  witty.  lovely. 

yeah, i think, nah, i strongly believe, i'm all these and more.
i think i'm now verging to conceitedness. but i still call it healthy self-love. 

which reminds me...

many times when i look at the mirror, i say, "ang ganda ko" without intending to voice it out, really, but sometimes someone at home hears me mumble that. there was a time ate monette, one of my housemates, did. she laughed and said, "wala kang suicidal tendencies no? mahal mo kasi sarili mo."

i smiled and i thought. isn't that part of the natural order of things, we love ourselves first before anyone else can love us? and yes, i love life and myself so much that i don't have suicidal tendencies. no dice.