to the only love i know.

days ago, i was thinking about what to give you or what to do to make your birthday a little more special than it already is. i feel compelled to do something extra sweet to compensate to the fact that i'm here and you're there. but truth is, there's really nothing i can do to cover that up.

there are a bunch of significant reasons why this day calls for a celebration--why you were born. but there is one of those reasons that smittens me--you were born for me. do you believe that? because i strongly do.

always, when there is nothing much left for me to think or worry about, i take comfort in reminiscing the times when i first knew you. you were very much a typical highschooler then. we were opposites. i was stiff, serious and unfriendly. you were fun, easygoing, and lovable. many years after, i'm pleased to think that we got to go to the same school, became classmates and that our paths crossed.

do you know that i am proud of you? i'm proud of you because i know exactly who you are. i'm thankful too that you gave me the chance to get to know you to bits, to the depths of your being.

to a friend, you are generous and ever-helpful. many times, i have witnessed that. you give whatever you can give and you help at the greatest extent that you can.

i'll always be amazed too, at how much you love your mom. it's obvious to me and to everyone. and i respect you and people like you so highly. i know too how much you love your dad, even when you don't make it too apparent.

when i think about all the things that you've been through in all the years that passed, i fall more deeply in love with you and i get even prouder of you. you surpassed all of those and you won over them. and you're closer to becoming into a man that you wanted to become.

(i am doing this last minute blogging and you cut me off by making a tango call. but that was actually sweet of you to make that quick call to show tita/mommy to me and me to her ☺. thank you! that just made me love you more.)

i'm lucky to have you. truth is, i'm thankful to God and to the universe that i didn't go through the trouble of meeting and loving a number of men, and having my heart broken numerous times in the end.

sure, i went to a lot of heartaches with you. but i don't regret any of them. i'm glad that it is with you, and YOU ALONE, that i shared all those juvenile mistakes, petty fights and hardcore heartbreaks. i'm glad that after all the bad times, we are together to pick the good times up, and together still to make new ones.

you give me so many reasons to be happy. and i'd go mad thinking about a future spent with somebody else and not you.

i can actually go nonstop pouring out all my thoughts about you. i have plenty of them. but i'm confident i have an entire lifetime to do that.

so for now, all i just wanted to say is that i'm extremely grateful that early in life, i found, and lost, and found once again (thank heavens!) that one man who was born for me, the one who's crazy enough to be willing to understand me and care for me and love me even at my worst.

"it's as if the power of the universe conspired to make you mine.."
-born for you

happy birthday dada! i love you, truly, madly, deeply, for the highschool boy that you were, the man that you are now, and the man that you will become.