one-way conversations

little ones, i thought of you again tonight. actually, i think of you almost everyday lately. and i wonder if i am close to having you. i know that's silly. i don't even know yet who your father is so chances of conceiving you is as remote as earning my first million.

you still seem so distant but i enjoy these one-way conversations i'm having with you. at least, in my mind, i already conceived you.

i observe kids these days and it saddens me to hear their worries and fears and angsts. it's heartbreaking to witness them break each others' hearts and trample each others' egos. you know, this life is interesting. there are so many things that you need to explore and learn. you'll be reckless and ruthless, but i hope in your odyssey, you avoid causing anyone any harm or pain of any kind. i hope you learn, fully, what kindness is, how beautiful it is and how it is different from being stupid. i hope you'll know how to bring people up without allowing them to bring you down. i hope your instincts will guide you on who to trust while making yourself worthy of it. that you won't deliberately use and abuse people. that you'll be soft and gentle but you'll give the impression that says, "you messed with the wrong person." 

may your small hearts be brave, one that fights.

i'll be with you, as much you need me, as long as you want me, don't worry.