i'm dazzled.

oh my gosh.

so, i'm in a quiet little corner, in my favorite spot, in the nearby mcdonalds (again). this is where i get free wifi, without even having to order anything. (yes, this is how cheap i can get. the cheapest meal would cost me 4 singapore dollars, so i'd rather stick to being cheap. that's a different story.)

anyway, one young chinese dad and his oh-so-adorable baby boy came and asked to share with my table. and share, we did. while i pretend to be busy doing my thing, surfing, i am quietly and discreetly observing. i've always enjoyed the sight of a young dad and kid. there is something arresting about such sight. i listen to their conversation, to how dad tries hard to explain to baby anything he asks in ways his still little brain can grasp. i watch how gentle big men can be to their sweet little toddlers. i can't help but smile everytime the baby boy speaks (and speaks good clear english at that!)


in my mind, i think about how the man i will marry and the baby i will carry will look together someday. will they be as arresting and heartwarming? i guess i can live the entire day by just looking, staring, gazing at them.


yeah, too much daydreaming. and maybe, too forward-thinking.


i was back to my senses when a few minutes later, they prepared to leave, and went ahead. i was back to being alone again. i haven't noticed the lonesomeness that much when one little boy, again, to my heart's delight, went to me and asked if he can share a seat with me. his mom and older brother were just right behind him.


oh, adorable lovable little creatures! why do they keep on smiling so sweetly and speaking so cutely, leaving me breathless and dazzled?


they are practically everywhere, and and my heart melts many times over, whenever i see one, every single day.

quirks and twists.

i planned to sleep early today to make up for the many nights i stayed up so late. i promised to give myself the decent rest it deserves. but here i am, almost half an hour past midnight, wide awake, trying to make sense of the things running in my head, in a nearby mcdonalds.

plans, for me, are like that, ever-changing, constantly evolving, adjusting to what lies at the present moment, to what emotion one is currently in.

just like some days ago, i thought about settling here in singapore for good, to let nanay stay here with me in her old age because i think this is a good place for her to settle in, while my original plan was to work here strictly for two years only. 

just like my plan of getting an iphone unit and phone line, payable for two years, and now i'm thinking of "delayed gratification," of buying one, cash, after i saved up for it months from now.

just like my plans about my future family life. i planned to marry at the age of 28 and have kids a year after that. now, seeing all the cute little beings here running around, calling out "mommy," and sending flying kisses, i suddenly wished to have a baby a year from now, should i be rich that quick.

maybe i'm just tired. possibly i'm just sleepy. definitely i'm just dreamy.

oh, the quirks and twists of recreating and reinventing plans! 

i begin.

i love every beginning, when everything seems brand new and promising.

just like the new life i'm creating and living.

it has only been a week since i came, and all experiences are still new, funny and surprising. i get lost almost every day, every time i try a different route. i enjoy the sight of different races walking around, or waiting by the bus stops, caucasians, malays, indians, persians, europeans, chinese, fellow filipinos. i still get excited everytime i ride double-decker buses. i love the convenience and comfort of mrt rides.

sure, i get homesick every so often. i miss the philippines. i miss all the people i love. but i'm more looking forward to the new people i'm yet to meet, and to the plans i'm bound to fulfill. i'm excited to achieve them one after the other.


i said this before and i'll say it again,

at the end of the day, life is about achieving whatever your heart sets on to, big or small, grand or mundane.


i just did.

and i will continue to do so.
and i will keep the dreams, and plans, and visions, and ambitions coming!!!!:)

i love SG

i fell in love with singapore the first time i set foot on sg grounds, and i'm loving it more and more all the days after that.

i also started listing down peculiar things i find interesting about SG. peculiar for me probably because i haven't been out of the country before, and the transition from a third-world country to first-class is really a big leap.

1. taxi drivers wear long sleeved-polo on duty and they are so professional-looking, you'll think they are lawyers, or doctors or someone prominent.

2. when you buy mobile phone sim card, you'll need your passport so you're name is registered to the telecom company.

3. keep left -- when crossing the street, when walking along the sidewalk, when driving, when utilizing escalators.

4. driver's seat is on the right side.

5. the sun is still up and on its full glory at 7pm.

6. people don't rush in mrt stations. it's actually a relaxed and chill place.

7. buses stop ONLY at designated bus stations.

8. reloadable EZ-link card is the official travel companion, you can use it both in mrt and bus rides.


i know philippines and singapore are incomparable. and i know these are petty things to consider. i didn't love SG for these reasons, anyway. i loved SG because it's an orderly, organized and fast-paced place.


this is not to say that i encourage everyone to leave rp for sg. it's just that we all find a place where we belong. a place where our heart beats easy. a place that feels like home.

and i think and feel, sg is my own unique home, it's where my heart is set, this year and in the next few years after.