updates.

there have been a lot of "going's-on" recently. 


most recently, and by that i mean just 41 minutes ago, i changed my relationship status on facebook. the request has been sent a month or so ago, and believe you me, i started contemplating on that matter since. whether to click "confirm," leave it hanging there, or ignore it completely.


and so we had a deal. he did his part, i had to do mine. but more than that i think what influenced me the most was timmy's FB status for today:


‎"At the end of it all, we have friends who'll get drunk and wild with us, who'll make us realize how stupid we were, who'll make us laugh about the things we cried about, and who'll still love us for always doing what we think is right and love--and that includes loving people who they think we don't deserve..." That is why I have a lot of other reasons to smile and be happy... ^^"



i ain't a celebrity or something, but i know right after the update is being broadcast to newsfeed, friends will have their reactions, violent or otherwise. some friends may approve, others will disapprove, but i wouldn't and couldn't love them any less because of that. 


it's not as if i'm getting married or anything, so i stop all the fuss right here. :)          
                                                                                                                 
quite recently too, yesterday particularly, i finally went to the job interview for singapore gig. the night before, things are starting to dawn on me, and i felt a heavy sinking feeling. for several minutes i let the lonesomeness rush in and i let myself sob a little. i'm leaving for real. i'm about to start a new life somewhere out there, without the comfort of family and friends i know so well. 


i know i'm starting the drama way too early since i still have a month, and maybe a couple of weeks of stay. it's just that i guess, the fact that i'm leaving for two years is a bit overwhelming for me. 


2 years. yet, before we notice it, it's spent and gone.