love (again)

i feel compelled to write just another post about love.


i blame it to the moon, the stars, the love bug, to alvin, to anyone or anything other than myself. what i'm trying to say is that i think this is something beyond me and my control.

tomorrow, we'll celebrate the eight-long-twisted years since we started to give that flicker of teenage love a try. i guess that's the beauty of finding a love lost. we don't go back to zero. we don't go through an awkward stage. we simply pick up and glide by where we left off.

today, there are so much yesterday thoughts, emotions and experiences rushing back in, good and bad, sane and insane.

the kisses.
the tears.
the cuddles.
the fights.
the words.
the gestures.
the plans.
the dreams.
the love.
the hate.

all these make our love authentic. exquisite. grand.

and despite and in spite of everything, here we are again.

better individuals.
changed.
grown.
driven.
defied the odds.

...and more in'love than we ever were.


i remember tets' funny remark:
eeeeeeh gaze in love with alvin again. wow. even madame auring couldn't have predicted that.

me neither. maybe just like gravity, love is too strong to resist. it's all powerful, all consuming.

nevertheless, i take back all the blame i said at the beginning of this post. i stop blaming everything and anyone else.

in all sanity and consciousness, i took the plunge to the love i know so well, to the only love i've ever known in this lifetime.